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For the first time.....

This is going to sound stupid to most and maybe some will get it but either way I want to share my experience with whoever.  I stopped at the bank the friday to pay my truck payment and had to sit in line for about fifteen minutes.  While I was there I noticed a man trying to get on his bike and I wandered why he could not just step on.  after a couple of minutes I rolled my window down to ask what was wrong and I realized he was crying.  Then it became clear to me as he cried and talked to himself that he was mentally challenged.  I wanted to help him so bad but he did not want to be helped he wanted on his bike and that was it.  As his crying turned to out right moaning and sobbing uncontrollably my heart broke.  It was the first time in my life that it had really broke.  I have said that I was heart broken before but nothing had ever matched the feeling I had at that moment.  I wandered why this world was so cruel and why a man like him who wanted nothing more out of life than for his bike to work was denied that but a selfish person like myself is blessed so much.  I cried my first real tears.  They were tears for another human being and they were the first tears that I ever shed out of compassion for another man.  God broke me at a bank parking lot in my truck.  How amazing is our God and how pathetic am I.

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